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At last.

I think it finally became reality today that I am growing up. The freedom and responsibility that comes with the new job is allowing me to embrace my independence and I love it! As I was leaving work today I felt free. And not that anything bad was holding me down, but that God has given me a freedom in Him and my job to allow me to grow in every way possible.

I still have two days at Sprinkles and they are becoming an inconvenience. At this point I’m used to it, but now I see the light at the end of the tunnel and these next two days are just getting in the way. Though I know leaving on Sunday is going to be bittersweet.

As my job gets going and I have a better idea of what I’ll be doing, I’ll post it. Right now I am all over the place because there is a lot of transitioning going on. The atmosphere at my job is so encouraging that I don’t mind what I am doing. I’ve found that each person I work with reminds me of someone else that I know. This makes it a whole lot more easier trying to get settled in. However I am trying to figure out if these people who remind me of the people that I DO know, have the same personality as the ones I know. I think that is going to take some time.

I’m a girl who loves the simple things in life. The simple thing I love about this job… Is my lunch break. They don’t want me to eat at my desk alone. It’s not even a question if I brought my lunch or will be going to the cafeteria, we try and eat around the table. I love it!! No more eating alone at my desk or taking my 30 minute lunch by myself. I think I am going to enjoy this working around people thing. And 2 years ago I highly doubt I would have even said that.

I’m at last stepping into the women God intended for me to be. I will never be content. I will ever be pressing to grow. But I can finally see myself taking shape into a Godly women and it is so humbling to think that he would want to work in me. It only encourages me and pushes me to press that much more and love that much stronger.

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Posted by on March 19, 2011 in Uncategorized

 

Madness

And so today begins the official start of March Madness. This really has no point to what I am writing about. But it is probably my favorite time of the year. Have being an adult with no vacation time yet sucks because this is the first year I have missed most of the games! With that off my chest… Go Duke!!

Today was my last week day at Sprinkles. Last 10 hour shift. It feels so good to be able to say that after months of it being my life. I’ve been at the new job for two days now and I am slowly trying to process what I have been learning. It is an overwhelming amount of information that is so vital to what we do. I need a break… not from the new job, but from life. Hopefully next weekend I’ll be able to make a quick trip to Houston and Orangefield.

My brain isn’t thinking to much. So with that sad it’s sleep time for this old one. Maybe tomorrow something more profound.

 
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Posted by on March 17, 2011 in Uncategorized

 

Southern Roots

I called my grandpa tonight. It’s been way too long since I talked to him. Every time I talk to him I am reminded of the strength that is behind the Garison name. We brought up some good memories and some tough ones. We laughed a lot and I was told to the call the police next time I get scared.

Remembering the days of rubber boots and gardening. Missing the sounds and simplicity of the country life. It’s not till your older that you can truly appreciate all that growing up in a small town had to offer. Obviously there are tough things, but I wouldn’t change any of it. The opportunity to live next door to my grandparents. To understand what it is to work for the food you put on your table. To never know what it means to be in want. I was blessed. My southern roots are what holds me together is this big city living. My last name is what has kept me accountable in every facet of life. I don’t think my grandparents know the magnitude of what they have meant to our family. Our lives and devotion to the Lord will be the only way they will every truly be able to grasp the impact they had and are having.

Today I started a new job. One that gives other people a chance to strengthen their families and marriages. It teaches them the skills that maybe they weren’t taught growing up. After talking to my grandpa tonight I found myself wishing my grandma could see me. Maybe it was a selfish moment, but I know of all my family she would be one of the most proud. I wish I could tell her about it. I want to share my excitement with her. I want to experience this blessing, that the Lord has set before me, with her. My new job is one way I can live out my Garison name. It’s one way I can keep the legacy of Tommie Garison alive. Through the families I will be able to encourage and all the people I will meet; I’ll be able to love on them the way she did. Never in a judgmental way, but as children of God needing direction; needing hope.

 
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Posted by on March 16, 2011 in Uncategorized

 

Standing on the Edge

Walking out of Stan’s office today was bittersweet; definitely not what I was expecting. I thought I’d burst through the door with excitement, but then I remembered how much I hate change and reality came right back. It’s a scary thing… the end of something. I’m ending two things so I think the emotions are double.

Of course I am excited about the new job. But then Satan has a way of slipping questions into my head that don’t alleviate any of the worry. What if I’m not doing what I thought my job was about? What if I am answering phones for the rest of my life and stuck as a receptionist? What if I screw something up and lose that responsibility? Questions of inadequacy flood my head. These feelings seem to mirror the ones I had right before I boarded a plane to Germany a year ago. I was heading over on a mission trip to speak the gospel to a group of people that I didn’t even know their language. How was I to communicate? I don’t do well talking to new people, this can’t possibly go well. And of course it went amazing because Satan doesn’t beat God. If God has called me to something, I better believe he will walk me through it. Occasionally running.

So despite my fears and anxiousness, I’m ready. I’m ready to get my social life back. I’m ready to use my resources to give to others. Though many questions I kind of already have the answer. And by having answers I mean I’m okay if I never get them. Life isn’t about knowing why things happen, it’s understanding that it’s all for our joy and His glory. I was blessed with this new job because I am here to glorify Him and I will do that. I will make the most of what he has laid before me. And I will find the strength that he always gives me; like he did on the streets of Berlin.

In life we can’t become complacent and I don’t ever intend to. It’s like I’m standing on the edge of this mountain today. A beautiful view and crystal blue water below me. One step closer to the edge. Deep breathe. And tomorrow… tomorrow morning I jump.

 
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Posted by on March 15, 2011 in Uncategorized

 

Life as it’s been.

With only one more day working for Stan and one more week with Sprinkles, I find myself eager and anxious to begin this next phase. I think partly because I am ready for some stability. Don’t take the word stability for complacency or boring. But I am ready to build meaningful relationships. I am ready to plug into a church in every way possible. God has already began to work in my life so clearly these past 3 months. The community he has began to build up around me only encourages me that this is where I am supposed to be.

I think when I took the job at Sprinkles it was a means to an end. Yes, I wanted to meet people. I just don’t think I was prepared for the relationships that came from it. I am totally blessed to be able to have met those girls and guys. And to know that those friendships won’t end just because I won’t be working there any more. It will be a test for me to see if I can cultivate and nurture what God has set before me.

Since I moved to Dallas almost 5 years ago, I don’t think I have been truly settled. I don’t think I have ever really made a place my home. I am so anxious and excited to begin that. I am ready to enjoy the blessings that God has bestowed upon me. And I want to bless others and give to others.

The future looks so beautiful to me. And it is absolutely nothing of my own doing. Because anytime I have planned something or tired something it has ended in ruins. I’ve learned to be okay with that because nothing I ever could have dreamed up would be near what God has given me.

I know that this season will at some point end. I’m not being pessimistic or debby downer. I’m pointing out the reality of the faith. I just come out of one of the worst seasons I have ever experienced; finding words to express it seems impossible. So even when another one of those seasons comes I will have this journey to look back on. Even when I can’t lift my head from my pillow I know the blessings and joy that my Savior brings.

I’m excited about this journey before me because my life as it’s been is no longer… It’s about to get that much sweeter.

 
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Posted by on March 14, 2011 in Uncategorized

 

What have we become.

With a day full of church, work, Duke victories, March Madness craziness… I was able to end my night by seeing The King Speech (with a dear friend). I am not going to be a critic where I tell you the highs and lows of the film. All I will say is that it was amazing. Now with that out of the way I’ll begin with what I took from the whole movie. Now this is in no way is the summary of the movie, or even a small part. But it is an underlying “thing”, that I noticed.

It being God.

I’m sure we have all heard “God save the King” or “God save the Queen.” The former being echoed through out the whole film. Not only that but in the end, when he is addresses the nation he closes with asking God for protection, and that it will be through God. And this all made me wonder what has happened to the world that we live in. Not 100% sure of the date, but some where around 1935, England, along with different Nations and Countries seemed to all take part and share in this idea of God. And that he will protect and he will save. I know there were many issues with the church back then, and I am not even going to attempt to bring those to light. But what I am saying is, what has become of the world that we live in. How is it that in less than 100 years we have fallen so far away from our creator?

Where was the turning point where our country and the others around us decided that we would be better without having God at the center of our culture? And how has the worked out for us? With no lean towards left wing or right wing, even our presidents since the 30’s have lacked the Christ driven leadership to stand up. We have become so concerned with stepping on others toes or pushing the boundaries. Yet wasn’t that exactly what Christ came to do? Correct me if I am wrong, but was not Jesus at odds with the leaders of the church? And was he ever about making them comfortable, or was He about speaking the truth.

Where did we lose our voice? Where did we lose the will power to stand up for what is the absolute truth? How have we become so complacent that in less than 100 years the world has become so dark?

I am not saying that the Spirit of God is not active and moving. I have seen in through out Germany, Russia and Mexico; trips that my alumni has recently participated in. I hear of great revivals in Africa. I know the Lord is moving and doing a work, but so many of us are sitting back and not moving with the Spirit.

My prayer is that ¬†another 100 years won’t pass without us getting our voice back to where it belongs. Be bold and declare revival not only on this nation, but all the nations around the world. And don’t just sit back, ¬†but become what we hope to see in the world. Because it all starts with you and me.

 
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Posted by on March 14, 2011 in Uncategorized

 

I’m gettin old.

So today I had the wonderful privilege of not having to be at Sprinkles till 1:30. This meant I’d be able to sleep in. As a child Saturday mornings meant sleeping in till 11:00 or maybe even past noon. I woke up at 8:30am. That for me is considered sleeping in. 9:00am is pushing it because after that my body starts hurting. the reality of getting old sucks sometimes. Don’t get me wrong. There are many things wonderful about growing up. But losing the ability to sleep in is not wonderful.

After a lazy morning I headed to work. I truly have realized and can see how Gods hand has moved since I have been at Sprinkles.The friendships that he has brought about are truly amazing and have helped me more than any of those girls can realize. It’s going to be sad leaving them but the encouragement they have brought about is a blessing.

I’m excited for church tomorrow and ready to be in the presence of the Lord and worship with other believers. My God is good and I am ready to be used in anyway possible to bring about his kingdom in this world.

 
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Posted by on March 12, 2011 in Uncategorized